who tried everything to make it work. She went the extra mile, she made sure he felt important. She did everything a good girlfriend should do. She was faithful, independent, and caring. She was there, when she was needed. She made him a prioirty. She made time for him in her bussy life. She went against the world with him. Every time, he broke her heart. Every time he would loose sight on why they were together. Every time he would miss doing his own thing. Every time things got comfortable he’d break up with her. Every time, she cried. Every time, she questioned why. Every time she would go to her friends and family. Every time, the same story was told over and over. Every time people told her to let him go. Every time he came back. Every time, he admitted he was wrong. Every time he vowed to change. Every time he would promise her so many things. Every time, those promises were broken. She gave him a chance to prove wrong again b/c deep down she wasnt ready to give up on him. ” A good girl goes back to the one who treated her bad, b/c she still has faith that he can change.” She waited. She asked him to talk. She asked him to make the time. He avoided. He didn’t see the point in having a talk. He didn’t make the time. She calls, he answers. She asks him why? He responds by telling her to never talk to him again . Girl cries, Girl hangs up. 

- a typical relationship for many 

- My opinion, once you’ve been hurt so many times, it’s hard to look at that person the same way again. You can forgive, but never forget.

- we’re young, there’s plenty more fish in the sea. 

You live and you learn. The statement people often say after a break up. Its true though, life comes with many obstacles that end up teaching us many lessons. Lessons that help us grow stronger. Lessons that help us become wiser. Lessons that help us become a better person. No one ever said life was easy. Everyone has their struggles. Some, more than others. As long as you never give up without a fight. Without trying, without, giving it your all, then you’re doing exactly what you should do. Taking risks and change can be a very scary thing, but in reality we have to be open to them, otherwise, we’d be stuck. We wouldn’t move forward,we wouldn’t try new things. We wouldn’t become who we’re suppose to be. They’re going to be people who try to knock you down and hurt you. They’re going to be a lot of them. Trust me, and it doesn’t get any easier. But that’s what makes you human. Feelings, emotions, compassion, without those,we’d be heartless, meaning, dead inside. There are those occasional people who will break you’re heart and might never understand you. And its okay to cry, to let it all out. Once you try everything you could have to save your relationship and nothing changes its okay to give up. Sometimes its for the best. If they can’t appreciate you’re efforts and respect you enough to talk then none of its worth it. I know its hard, I know it hurts. I’m still hurting, but I like to believe that I’ll be okay.  You live and you learn life’s challenges.

seems like it’s falling apart. Remember how blessed you are and how much you have to offer the world.

TIME TO HIBERNATE, EAT, WORK & PLAY! Happy Holidays everyone =)

Just a little bit,

tired from these complications,

tired from these wrongful foundations.

Just a little bit,

worried about my problems, my family, & my life,

worried about my future, and if I’d be your wife.

Just a little bit,

interested in my potential,

interested if my problems are continental.

Just a little bit,

Curious if I am alone,

Curious if I am on my own.

Just a little bit,

Ready, Ready to find myself,

Ready to be myself.

Just a little bit,

Apart of you,

Because we all feel the same

We all play apart in this life’s game.

But dam sometimes it’s just too much,

Sometimes you just need someone to be your crutch.

To lean on, to cry on

Someone you can rely on

I’m just a little bit, just a little bit

Indifferent.

By Mariel Fermin ( instead of writing a journal about how I feel, I decided to go back to writing spoken words)

You have to want it to get it.